There is a noticeable unrest unraveling from deep within my body. I feel agitated, lethargic, stiff, achy, exhausted, overstimulated…. all the things. What the hell is happening? My body is outgassing fear. Outgassing implies a certain unpleasantness, and even toxicity; both words being apt descriptors for a body that has been drenched in fear. Fear has a smell to it, maybe not consciously detectable, but there nonetheless. And it seems to have been storing itself in my cells, my tissues, my muscles, and perhaps even my organs for years.
Yes, brought back memories of a childhood when my cells were always on "alert"....can see how this carried over into adulthood and I then created cardiac adventures due to this....hugs! PS...have ya seen Daisy Jones and the 6?
Excellent read Justice and so important. I just started watching a 4 part workshop with Gabor Mate this afternoon on trauma, A.C.E. and then opened this. Thank you.
You are so wise. Much trauma is stored in the body and our energy fields.
I think part of the healing of body modalities such as yoga, dance, massage, hugs come from releasing this old trauma.
Have you ever tried this pose in shallow warm salty water? eg seaside, float tank or large bath with salts. I believe salty water speeds trauma release and eneryg clearing. And warm salty water is sorta what we were in during the first 9 months of our encarnation on this planet...
Dear Justice, How quietly this has spoken to my heart! I am somewhat alone today and needed someone to converse with about just these things and here you are. The plate flying at a head, the dissociated look … in that passage in particular I felt it all. Thank you for your courage and for helping me to own mine.
This tore open my heart . What courage you have to forgive and heal over and over again. Thank you again for your beautiful writing. Maybe tonight at 3am I will be able to be brave enough to forgive too.
Gorgeous. I find myself wanting to hold the shimmer of these words in the way that I want to grab the resonate sounds of a pitchfork. The tome cannot be touched or held and it’s a pity.
Thank you Justice for sharing your experiences and process in this powerful essay. I have been struggling with similar issues. I feel this so much. I especially like the way you mapped out a way of how you engage with the fear that comes up. I find the questions useful. I have been looking for something like this. You are of so much benefit
Yes, brought back memories of a childhood when my cells were always on "alert"....can see how this carried over into adulthood and I then created cardiac adventures due to this....hugs! PS...have ya seen Daisy Jones and the 6?
Excellent read Justice and so important. I just started watching a 4 part workshop with Gabor Mate this afternoon on trauma, A.C.E. and then opened this. Thank you.
You are so wise. Much trauma is stored in the body and our energy fields.
I think part of the healing of body modalities such as yoga, dance, massage, hugs come from releasing this old trauma.
Have you ever tried this pose in shallow warm salty water? eg seaside, float tank or large bath with salts. I believe salty water speeds trauma release and eneryg clearing. And warm salty water is sorta what we were in during the first 9 months of our encarnation on this planet...
Adding hip opener to my set of self-healing :-)
Dear Justice, How quietly this has spoken to my heart! I am somewhat alone today and needed someone to converse with about just these things and here you are. The plate flying at a head, the dissociated look … in that passage in particular I felt it all. Thank you for your courage and for helping me to own mine.
This tore open my heart . What courage you have to forgive and heal over and over again. Thank you again for your beautiful writing. Maybe tonight at 3am I will be able to be brave enough to forgive too.
Gorgeous. I find myself wanting to hold the shimmer of these words in the way that I want to grab the resonate sounds of a pitchfork. The tome cannot be touched or held and it’s a pity.
Thank you Justice for sharing your experiences and process in this powerful essay. I have been struggling with similar issues. I feel this so much. I especially like the way you mapped out a way of how you engage with the fear that comes up. I find the questions useful. I have been looking for something like this. You are of so much benefit