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Billy Manas's avatar

What a gutsy topic to write about! Thank you, Justice.

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Elka Wilder's avatar

"How then does the great oak meet the storms of life if not to bend and sway? He breaks. He cracks. He topples. His roots upturned to the sky, the ecosystem he once supported left shaken in his wake. We, who are left behind, are left to compost what he once was, integrating his loss as best we can."

This whole article is So needed. Sharing. These lines in particular made me weep. My father was a toppled oak, by the time he died. I tried too hard, perhaps, to forge a deeper connection with him in his last months. It was heartbreaking to face the fact that it would never happen, and to face what he had willingly given up of himself in order to fulfill his role as the provider. Or maybe that he had been absent to himself (as well as emotionally absent to the rest of the family) for most if not all of his life.

And then, I recreated the wound of the emotionally unavailable, stoic, controlling, yet generous, providing father in my relationship with my former husband. And in the next two relationships with men that followed.

It's such powerful work to name, honor, and grieve what we have given up as a culture, in the Disney-fied/ Netflix-fied fantasies of the man on the noble steed, or the hero of the apocalypse that men are pressured to embody. Thank God there are men now who are doing the work of grieving and supporting each other in reclaiming themselves as whole beings. Thank God there are women who have been hurt by the wounds of men, speaking up for the men, giving support and understanding.

I grieve the loss of two younger brothers to suicide, that could not find enough support. One was my brother by blood, the other my brother in deep soul connection.

Thank you, Justice.

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